Wow radio silence on the blog for a looonnggg time, huh? I guess the thing to do these days when explaining an absence is NOT to say sorry. Or to say sorry and then say “I know I shouldn’t apologize but I feeeel bad.” So basically I’m going to say “Hi, again!” and fill you in on some…stuff that’s gone on in my life over the last year.
I’ve kept a great deal of my personal life off social media for over a year. With the encouragement of some very close (and wise) friends, I’m slowly inching my way back to coming out of hiding. I’ve kept a lot of things private out of embarrassment, what other people might think or say about me, and out of respect for everyone involved. So what happened?
::runs and hides::
::peeks out from behind the couch:: (why I ran behind a couch I’m not sure, it just felt right.)
Still with me? Great. The specifics don’t matter to anyone but the parties involved and for obvious reasons will not be talked about here or anywhere. What does matter is this: it sucked, it hurt, and it was for the best.
I haven’t known how to really come out and say all of this. Like, do I just randomly say on Twitter “YAY the #pumpkinspicelatte is back! Ps I’m separated from my husband.”? Mmm no. Do I just start posting about the guy I’m seeing and my current life? That would be weird. I felt like after blogging about my wedding and married life, I needed to explain myself a bit more. However, going back to what I said earlier (embarrassment, judgement, etc) I didn’t know *what* to do.
So I just kind of…didn’t say anything. Since Summer 2013 I stuck to posting about work or life with my friends/family (and the occasional selfie, of course.)
Lately, however, I’ve really missed sharing my life with my “internet friends.” Life is great, really it is, but I also have a lot of shit going on, to put it lightly. Having another outlet to talk about the good and the bad, get advice, and just get back to being myself…I need that.
I’ve lost a lot of friends, gained new ones, and developed even deeper connections with the ones who have been there for me. I’ve done a LOT of growing over the last year and things in my life have changed drastically. I’ve changed jobs, sold a house, bought a new one, started seeing a new guy (acquiring a 6 year old in the process), and adopted another puppy. WHEW. SO MANY THINGS I’ve wanted to talk about and I just didn’t know how or when.
But I think now I’m ready. I’m ready to share things like “The six year old doesn’t want his food touching and OH MY GOD Mom I’m so sorry for being like that as a kid.” I don’t know if I’ll keep this blog going, start a new one, or just share via Twitter/IG/Facebook, but I’m ready to open back up.
I hope you’ll follow along. 🙂