Real talk…Reverb 10 is really not interesting to me. I thought the prompts would be a bit more fun, I guess. They’re just not inspiring me to write at ALL. In fact, now I realize why I didn’t do NaBloPoMo: because I don’t want to feel guilty for not writing every.damn.day. And every morning when the Reverb 10 prompt arrives in my mailbox I think, “Great, yet another prompt that is of no interest to me” and then I feel guilty for not keeping up the commitment and blah blah.
To be honest, I’m thinking of taking a break from blogging. And if not a break, then I need to quit beating myself up for not posting regularly. I’ve really lost interest in writing and I’m so behind on everyone’s blogs that I think a break might be necessary. It’s clear to me that I don’t know how to juggle work, my personal life, my social life, and my blogging life. I know a lot of you blog on the weekends, but mine are usually so filled to the brim with work and either seeing friends, going out with Josh, or going home, that the little time I do have to myself, I just want to sit. Or clean. Or go shopping. Or do anything but think and/or write.
This could also just be the holiday stress talking. Because OH MY GOD I hate the holidays. Have I done any Christmas shopping? Ha. No. I’m probably about 3.5 seconds away from a nervous breakdown. Maybe what I’ll do is be on hiatus from now until the new year and come back refreshed with lots of new ideas and a better sense of how the hell I’m going to juggle a million things at once. Also…thank GOD I don’t have any children. Eff. that. Also, I think I need to be more “real” on here. Because in real life, I say things like “fuck” and “bitch” and “you’re such a whore” and I’m really NOT as nice as I seem. So I need to figure out how to project my true self on here without alienating some of my readers.
Yeah. That last paragraph might be the best example of why I need a break.